On Fri, 11 Jul 2008 13:55:48 +0000, Telling it how it is wrote:
> On Thu, 10 Jul 2008 19:24:46 -0700, KONCHOK.PENDAY wrote:
>
>> KP2008JUL10 YOU CAN'T MAKE THIS STUFF UP.
>>
>> 4:20 PM I feel like I'm in a fellini movie ... of a kafka novel. I
was
>> browsing through
>> http://www.gold-eagle.com/editorials_01/seymour062001.html
when I had
>> that now familiar sense of shock: You can't make this stuff up.
>> Nobody would believe it ...
>> if it wasn't macabrely true.
>>
>> I finally saw my landlord/friend.
>> While he was drill-sargeanting me
>> for failing to obey a direct order
>> to RELAX when he told me to.
>
> Ouch ! How dare he?
He has no fear.
>> I had
>> the nerve to shout back.
>
> Good for you, empowerment.
????
It didn't work out that way.
I've been down that road before,
and I know the script all too well.
I'd prefer to just be cheerful all
the time no matter what happens ...
but I too easily lose that viewpoint.
If I'm my foreground
then he's my background.
What's wrong with this picture?
I feel like the picture
could be much better,
but I can't seem to
adjust it at all.
>> I didn't
>> like being left with no materials
>> for two weeks.
>
> Waiting..... what a bummer.
Yessence.
>> I soon learned.
>
> You did?
I'm sure
there's a lot
I haven't.
>>that
>> when I called up asking for paint
>> [after I'd spent about two weeks
>> shooting four gallons], my voice was
>> QUIVERING!
> Fear, anger and release.
Yes, something like that.
>> Considering I had just
>> done 4 hours of work in two weeks
>> of desperate last-ditch effort,
>> while my life was collapsing,
>> it's amazing I could talk at all.
>
> Reason, take action, conformation, awareness
OK.
>> I was DESPERATE to get the paint
>> so I could shoot the panels, put
>> them up, and be *DONE* with this
>> project that was stalled for 6
>> months by cold wet weather, while
>> I was nagged to finish it ASAP!
> Conflict of interests,
???? I just wanted it done.
> reap what you sow.
???? I got it started. Just couldn't finish.
>> I want it done too!
>
> Then act.
I did as soon as I could. It's up now.
>> I was right that he was ill.
>
> Intuition.
>
>> The only reason he didn't go
>> to the hospital is: the last
>> time this happened, they kept
>> him for two days
> Empathy, relative to self.
Kept waiting?
>> and ...
>> did absolutely nothing ...
>> besides bill him obscenely.
>
> Disgusted.
Yes, the usual.
He's quite familiar
with the medical scene.
>> So he's under a lot of stress
>> what with dying and all, and he
>> didn't want to have to worry
>> about me and my high blood
>> pressure.
>
> Such stress could kill a man.
> He didn't want to have to worry.
> When made to worry.
> How could he worry?
> Unless, unless you express your fear.
???? I'm not afraid of my high BP.
I'm still researching what might
be causing it, and how to fix it.
I'm much more afraid of the
doctors and their medicines.
I just wanted to finish the shed.
>> So he stepped
>> up to the plate and took
>> responsibility for my health,
>> that I was so sorely lacking,
>
> "self" realisation.
joke.
>> by FORCING me to relax and
>> do nothing but heal up, by
>> NOT GIVING ME the paint he
>> already had ... while promising
>> to bring it to me. In this
>> way he was bringing my blood
>> pressure down by forcing me
>> to relax. "There was NOTHING
>> that you needed to do in those
>> two weeks!" [that he knows or
>> cares about!]. My refusal to
>> obey orders to relax is mutiny,
>> and I quickly recanted before
>> he was forced by my obstinance
>> and ingratitude to hexecute me.
>
> Dog's that bite the hand that bits the dog that feeds it.
Something like that.
I can see us as me and him,
but if I try to adopt nonduality
as my attitude, I'm still back
at "my". I think we could do
a better dance than this, but
no matter how I try in so many
ways, I've never made progress.
>> He doesn't want me painting
>> panels on the ground where
>> I can shuffle all around them
>> on my bum knee at the perfect
>> height to shoot paint ... he'd
>> prefer I wait until the shed is
>> built ... so I can climb a ladder!
> A flow is not always a river.
Sometimes it's a rock to the head.
>> It'll be much easier then!
>
> It is.
"Tomorrow" is the easiest of all,
but has some shocking drawbacks.
>> He only goes to so much
>> trouble over me because
>> he really does love me.
> But do you love him?
Yes. He has some remarkable qualities, but
he often makes them very hard to remember.
>> The last time I was under so much
>> RELAXING NON-STRESS, I had mini-strokes.
> Then stop it.
I did.
I eventually gave up on doing
the shed promptly or right.
It wasn't going to happen
no matter what I did. After
I did everything I could think
of, I gave up in uselessness, but
I did NOT have a stroke this time :-)
>> You can't make this stuff up.
>
> hmmm, I think "you" can.
I agree it IS happening to me.
I'm part of the all and I'm
embarrassed the picture I am
part of is so uselessly ugly.
I keep thinking I can do much better than this
.... but I get lots more of the same old same old.
I admire those who are certain that
this is the best of all possible worlds.
That's not how it looks to me!
I was so bemused by
seeing someone else's
"You can't make this stuff up."
yesterday, I googled it and
was amazed to find LOTS of
people and sites. They
even have a cartoon. I'm
WAY late on the chain, but
it obviously IS a resonant
thought for many people.
>> After a two week wait,
>> I used up the 3 gallons
>> he brought me in 3 hours.
>> Most but not all panels
>> are primed. None have
>> top coat. I got the
>> floor and walls up
>> that day, and the
>> roof up the next.
>
> Resolution.
It's out of my way now.
I can do something else.
I know some things I
didn't before building.
>> I still don't
>> have paint for it,
>> but he may not
>> care anymore.
>
> He doesn't anymore. Why is that?
MAY have his attention wrapped up elsewhere,
.... OR he MAY show up tomorrow with paint.
>> At least it's UP,
>> and fastened
>> together. All
>> the pieces were
>> the right size,
>> and none left
>> over. Way Cool!
>>
>> My design was perfect!
>
> That may be, but your designs are wrong.
Probably true, but I
don't know in what way.
>> My panel construction
>> was plenty good enough!
>>
>> My one-cripple crew did
>> mess up bad on leveling the
>> foundation, and my stupid
>> lazy foreman didn't even
>> bother to shuffle off
>> a few paces to eyeball
>> it, so we had an ...
>> OOOPS! moment framing,
>> but Instant Fudge and
>> redesign saved the day
>> for a woodshed built
>> of discarded materials.
>> I got back at them by
>> shorting their pay!
>
> Oh, you shorted alright.
Joke: "They" work for free.
>> The shed looks pretty damn good!
>> At least it's not spread
>> all over the field in pieces!
>
> Something to be thankful for?
Yes! It's finally BUILT!
It's solid. It doesn't
flex or rack. The roof
is plenty strong enough,
even with one side open.
>> I was reading through
>> some online news recently,
>> I think it was about politics
>> but I'm not sure at all, when
>> I came across a sentence that
>> shocked and thrilled me both:
>> "You can't make this stuff up."
> Oh yes "you" can.
Allright. I certainly am a
causative factor in the equation.
WHY CAN'T I DO BETTER THAN THIS?
I'M ASHAMED!
>> It felt like my twin
>> soul was talking to me.
>>
>> Someone else had
>> the very same reaction
>> to the same kind of
>> spinsane regurgiturd!
>>
>> Outrageous mendacity
>> proves authenticity
>> ... beyond all doubt!
>
> Who's doubt?
Nobody's! ... IF it's all gone!
>> IT'S TRUE!
>
> Is it?
>
> Prove it?
I can't.
>> You CAN'T make this stuff up!
>
> Oh yes "you" can.
OK. Why can't I do much better?
>> Someone else sees it too!
>
> Everyone sees!
> But denial is a ***** to be messing with.
>
> What?
>
> You want to stop NOW?
>
> You cant!
>
> Now is eternal.
>
> Didn't you know that?
No. It's a thought or a theory to me,
but I don't KNOW it. I know I don't
want to spend forever like ... THIS!
> Deflection, time hop, back to the shed....
>> Since I got the shed up and
>> gathered a few of my half-wits.
>
> You did?
Sure ... I think so.
> Or is it that like attracts like?
Doesn't seem like it to me.
>> I've been researching patents
>> again.
>
> And the shed? Didn't you just mention a shed
Yes! And shoes and ****ps and sealing wax!
>> Maybe it's a blessing
>
> Researching patents its not a blessing.
Actually, for me it was!
I was quite energized
by seeing a new option.
>> my attorney is too rich and too
>> busy for me!
>
> Which is a good thing? Right ?
Maybe!? He did a lot for me.
>> It's gotten a
>> LOT easier to file patents!
>> You can even do it online now!
>> It still hugely complex, but
>> legal jargon was my stock it
>> trade for years. Maybe I
>> can do my patent myself!
> Only if you know how to start.
I know something about that.
Some has already been done.
My attorney laid out strategy
that should be simple to do.
There are big DONES to build on.
> <snip> crap :)
reinsert snipped crap [ ] :-)
>> You can't make this stuff up.
>
> Oh I think "you" can.
OK. Maybe I'm just embarrassed
I can't do MUCH better than this.
I saw so many other options,
but couldn't get any to hatch.
>>
>> (O
>> - )
>> (O
>>
Nice!
Classical greek/apollonian
pro****tions and overtones
m?
> ...and that's the truth.
That's Your Truth!
Thanks for writing!
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